I have work tomorrow. I can't face it. I'm seriously considering topping myself so I don't have to go. I don't hate my work. It's a good place. I just don't fit. Anywhere. I feel incompetent because my last school had us doing so few jobs that in my new workplace I feel I don't know anything. I've already cut myself today for other reasons and taken tablets to knock myself out. It worked for couple hours. I don't have enough tablets to knock myself out now and keep myself safe and all I can think of is taking them all, everything I have, that would put me to sleep. Permanently.